I have a funny post to share with you, but that will have to wait a couple more days. If you follow my Facebook page, you know I did that annoying vague status update thing about something rather life-altering happening Friday, and not in a good way, and that I might need a little time to regroup my funny.
While I never do things like that, for once I needed support and you guys came out in such a way that I was actually emotionally touched, which rarely happens. And even though I owe you a “thanks” and not an explanation, you’re getting both instead. Plus, writing is my therapy.
*Here’s where you can click away if you don’t want to read a ramble and instead come back next time for normal neurosis (waits for the room to clear.)
Okay. Let me start with a little story…go grab a drink.
I don’t talk about it a lot, but when I was much younger I was in a relationship with an older guy for more than five years. He wasn’t a bad guy, but it was a very bad relationship for me that left me feeling trapped and has contributed to many of the issues I still have today. At a time in my life when that should have been carefree and fun, I was miserable.
I cried myself to sleep way too often.
So why did I stay in a situation that I knew was wrong, that was making me sick and unhappy? Because at the time, I was naïve and craved that stability and safety. Even if it wasn’t ideal, it was something that I could depend on. I would finish college, get married, have financial stability and the “normal” that we’re told we need to achieve.
When we finally broke up, I was devastated. I mean, I was “cry your eyes out the world is going to end” devastated but not for the obvious reasons. It wasn’t that I was going to necessarily miss him as a person, but rather that the stable future I thought I could depend on was gone.
I panicked. I cried. I did the normal 20-year-old freaking out thing.
But you know what happened? In less than a week, I woke up and everything was fine. In fact, it was awesome. For the first time I had the freedom to do what I wanted when I wanted. I got a job as a cocktail waitress and had the best summer of my life, making new friends and doing things that made me happy—for me. It took losing who I thought I had to become to finally learn who I was—as much as you can know at age 21.
What does that have to do with me now?
Friday I lost my job.
I’m still a little in shock and I’m sure it hasn’t completely sunk in yet, but the enormity of the situation is obvious. My benefits run out at the end of the month and I have to apply for unemployment all while trying to pay my mortgage, bills, etc. all on my own. That’s huge. Enter panic and “oh my god the world is going to end” initial reaction.
But while you don’t need to know the details, I will tell you that the situation was not healthy and in fact bordered on abusive on several occasions.
And I know I was damn good at my job. Hell, two months before I was told I was great and my job was mine as long as I wanted it, which is why this was a surprise (but not unheard of, seeing as they’re a small company and more than 20 people had come in and out of that office in six years.)
But more than external praise, I know how hard I worked and I’m proud of the quality that I produced, the effort that I gave and the way that I conducted myself, despite an unhealthy situation. So while right now I’m trying to decide how to decorate the cardboard box I might end up living in, there’s also a small sense of…unfamiliar relief?
Although it’s still raw, there’s a sense that a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and that maybe this is just what I needed to find something that is healthier for me—physically and mentally. Maybe this will allow me to actually do something that means something to someone other than the only person making the profit.
Because much like that relationship mentioned above, I felt stuck in this job, but yet I never left because I didn’t know what else I could do even though what I was doing wasn’t making me unhappy.
So I’m taking this as a sign.
If I wasn’t going to seek out the respect and fulfillment I deserve, the universe decided it would step in instead and throw a high-speed curve ball at my head. Now I have no choice.
That’s not to say I’m not scared, that I won’t miss my coworkers or that things are going to be easy by any stretch of the imagination. Right now there’s a little bit of fear. There’s a little bit of panic. There’s this whole long ramble nobody probably read. But there’s also no walking on eggshells. There’s no sitting at a desk and counting down the seconds on the clock.
With my security stripped, there’s also an unfamiliar freedom.
Maybe it will take losing who I thought I had to become to finally learn who I am—as much as you can know at age 33.
Need a holiday gift? Buy the books and cool things!
P.S. Thank you. I promise funny next time, but today–thank you.
Sounds like you are ready to embrace this next new start and sounds like the universe did you a favor, frightening as it may be. Love how they do this right around the holidays – that’s so effed its almost… funny. Almost.
‘Tis the season! But thank you so much.
I’m hoping for nothing but happiness, a decent paycheck, and good benefits for you, hon.
I read it all. Not a ramble by any stretch of the word.
Wishing you peace in your heart more days than less during this transition.
No doubt you landed on your feet and haven’t noticed yet. (They’re still numb).
Plenty of other soap makers out there that would want you to fight with them.
Not sure about the soap maker thing–unless you’re a soap maker and want to hire me for some reason–but thank you so much.
I just know that you’ll be fine. I’ve always looked back on situations like that and thought how glad I was they happened, because it they hadn’t, I wouldn’t be where I am now. . . . They can’t keep a good girl down.
This just happened to me!
At first the shock left me baffled.
After shock came unexpected relief.
In fact, the overwhelming relief let me know it wasn’t all about the financial part.
Really? Feel free to message me if you start to freak out, but it sounds like you’re in a pretty good place.
Beautifully written, as always, whether serious or humorous—you got it, girl! Been where you are, more times than I would like to remember (this last time was by email…about 5 days into my vacation). Wishing you the peace and goodwill to enjoy the holiday season. Hope the New Year brings you a job that fills the bank account and fulfills you at the same time!
Wow. By email? Classy. But thank you so much. As always.
Oh Abby! Big hugs, girl. I lost my job this past summer so I know how you feel. Get this: I had to train the person who got my job (it was a seniority issue, so much fun…). Things always seem to work out, though, and I was able to get a job that allowed me to keep my benefits AND pays more. So yay. I’ll keep my fingers crossed that you find something even better, and soon. Hang in there, girl 🙂
P.S. The soap maker thing is a Fight Club reference. Oh if only I could find a job that payed handsomely for having useless trivia facts stacked up in my brain like firewood.
Gah. Apologies for the overuse of “girl”. Not enough coffee yet.
DUH. I’ve only seen Fight Club 1,000 times and still didn’t pick up on it. Let’s blame lack of coffee for the past 10 years. And YES! I also was training my replacement, although I was told that’s not what I was doing (by the way, I wish her well.) Hopefully I can end up as well as you have, my friend!
When Kris Kristofferson was unknown and poor, he came home to his one-room apartment to find it’d been cleaned out by burglars. That’s when he came up with the line “Freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose.”
You’re in my prayers, Abby. There’s a door opening somewhere for you.
I also read the whole thing abd while i know change is very hard when one door closes another always open. Bigger and better thing are on their way to you. Keep your chin up. Merry christmas and happy new year.
I love that you are choosing to see this as an opportunity to start anew. Message me if you want to chat. I’ll keep you in my thoughts.
Well, you can go two ways with this. I’m sure I’ll be rocking in the fetal position at some point, but today I’m choosing to be slightly optimistic–something I haven’t been for a long time. That alone tells me things might be okay…for now 😉
I can soooo relate to this post. I too was in a job that I was good at, that was unhealthy. I also lost that job in a way that till this day (it’s been a year) I cannot fully explain. Truthfully, I was never really told why I lost my job. But this past year has been awesome. And so many more experiences have been gained. Also, my new job is using my talents in a much better way. I haven’t missed the last job AT ALL. Once you get past the fear and panic your new adventures will be awesomely epic!
I needed to hear that, so thanks! And…congrats 🙂
Did you work for my former employers by chance? They sound way too similar. I was three months pregnant when my employer decided to save themselves money and fire me. To make it worse they lied about why I was being fired in order to block Unemployment and to prevent a law suit since it is illegal to fire an employee for being pregnant. Luckily their lies caught up with them, and I was ultimately able to claim Unemployment. While it felt impossible at the time, it really did work out for the best. It was scary but very liberating to be out of a toxic soul eating work environment. Good luck to you!
Oh man… but I’m guessing you’re going to survive – you seem like a surviver 🙂
What a stressful situation, but it seems like you have the right attitude. I definitely suggest putting your info up on Linked In if you haven’t yet. Recruiters really are using it to find new employees, and lots of friends in different industries have noted that it’s been enormously helpful when they were looking for work. Fresh start for the new year. Best of luck- you’ve got this!
Oh, trust me. I have had a LinkedIn profile for years, although I’m not sure it’s been that helpful. However, since you asked….and thank you!
Doesn’t always have to be funny. Thanks for sharing, and good luck. You’ve got a real talent and if they don’t need that, find a place to use it. Good riddance.
The timing, however, can suck it!
When I lost my last job, I was so relieved I couldn’t see straight. It took less time to find my current job than it did with my previous stay of unemployment and I’m definitely the better for it. You will find something that works for you and be happier than ever before. You can get through this! Sending good juju your way.
Take it from someone who has lost jobs for a variety of reasons (most of which stemmed from “Nothing personal…it’s just business…”), doors will open that you never knew existed. Take control of your destiny! Change isn’t easy but it’s good!
Wow! What a gut punch that must have been! I must say, this vulnerable side of you, though possibly difficult to expose, is impressive. Strength comes from adversity and you are still so young to be done learning and growing. Hell, I’m still at it and I’m well beyond, with four children and a great potential for dentures in my not-so-distant future!
Time to channel your energies into that special gift of yours….(no, the other one!)
Will keep you in my prayers.
It was so interesting learning more about you. That was definitely a curveball you received but I see yo has a very smart & talented person who will receive many job offers in the month (or months) to come. Stay strong! Saying a prayer for you!
I’m so sorry to hear about the sudden loss of your job, Abby. How stressful! I hope that just the right position will appear for you in a job that is fulfilling and positive. In times like this, I remind myself that nature abhors a vacuum. That empty space will be filled by something else, and hopefully it will be something that empowers you and reflects back to you the amazing person that you are.
Jesus, Abby, that sucks! I’m so sorry that happened to you and–although there’s no “good” time to lose a job, losing a job so close to the holidays seems doubly unfair. I am so proud of the way you’re choosing to see this as an opening, not a closed door. Here if you ever need a friendly ear. Love you.
I’m glad that you’re seeing the opportunity in this. It’s unfair and stressful and scary, but it WILL be a good thing. I can’t wait to see what great adventure this will propel you into (but definitely message me in the event the adventure feels like a nightmare now and then – you know I’ve been there)!
I can understand the fear, especially where uncertainly is concerned, but I say embrace this opportunity. It sounds like you already are, actually and maybe instead you could devote all those hours to something you really love and something that’s healthy for you mentally and physically. You really do have the right attitude about it. Their loss is your gain.
I am so sorry you have this angst and turmoil in your life, but I hope in a (very) little while you’re able to look back and confirm that, yes indeed, this was your amazing turning point. Ellen
You are seeing this awful experience in exactly the right way. Yes, it’s scary right now. But you don’t know what the future holds, and just as you found freedom at 20, you will find freedom at 33. Been where you are, and things worked out. Not as I had thought, but in a different way that turned out to be ok. Hang tight, keep as positive as you can.
It can be so scary to be without a job. You are very smart and talented. I had a similar experience once and it really is the best thing. Now you can find something where others see how great you are in every way. Nothing holds you back.
I lost mine too on Monday…totally unexpected! Even though there is a fear and a let down there is also a sense of relief and hopeful expectation of what is next to come.
Their HUGE loss indeed.
I’m sorry you lost your job. I think you have a great attitude and will be able to look back on this time later as a time of great personal growth. Hang in there.
Thank you for sharing. Life isn’t always funny. We make jokes about it to cope otherwise we wouldn’t be here! And it serves us well. I too am a satirical writer/blogger, Mama, frustrate creative, and it helps. It helps me and it helps others. So that said, never hold back on your posts even when they aren’t funny! You have a fan base that supports you funny or not, and if they don’t good riddance! Let ‘er rip girl! And PLEASE, PLEASE reapply for benefits. I was laid off while pregnant and it took some appeals but I was fortunate to have three extensions. So grateful.
Your mention of training your replacement reminds me of my Father, rest his soul, he was also in that position. My Mom told him what was inevitably true, he was being set up for fire. It hit him so hard because he was older and couldn’t get hired. I mean he was old school and there was no place for him in the job force any more, sad but true. He never got over that. People can be so callus! And the world of working for others is a painful one. I think this is the time to brainstorm and bring out your entrepreneur. There are loans and Kickstarter. This is your opportunity. I know you might not see it, but we do. And as I write this I am writing this to myself as well. See this has inspired me to kick myself in the ass and get working on my passion and embrace my worthiness! See, this is why you must always write, funny or not!
Thank you Abby and sending out lots of light and love. You make me laugh all the time, let me (us) support you for a little while!
I read here periodically and never comment, but this post really touched me and I just wanted to say that I am sorry and good luck. I hope you find something new that you really enjoy and that allows you to have a life you can be excited about.
Oh, I’m so sorry this has happened to you and that you are dealing with so much right now. That is a major blow. 😦
I completely agree with you about the universe. It does often clear our paths for us. Whenever things start falling apart, I remind myself of a quote by Anne Lamott, explaining how Buddhists believe that in the background of upheaval, something beautiful and unseen is being woven for us:
…they believe when a lot of things start going wrong all at once, it is to protect something big and lovely that is trying to get itself born-and that this something needs for you to be distracted so that it can be born as perfectly as possible.
I have seen this happen enough times in my own life to know that there is a lot of truth in that idea. Many times when I thought everything was falling apart, it was actually falling into place, and in the background something beautiful was being pieced together from all of that brokenness.
I know that doesn’t lessen the panic and fear, though. It is always very scary when we have to walk into the unknown. But I do believe that even if we don’t always know exactly where we are going, we always end up exactly where we need to be.
Best of luck and lots of love to you, sister. You will be okay. ❤
I join the others in offering up strength and conviction and hope. You can do this…being scared isn’t the end of the world, and like you said, it may have been (probably was) a sign. You GO girl! Wishing you all good things!
How terrifyingly exciting! I think people like us who are so easily upset and made uncomfortable by things that would seem insignificant to others, are better prepared to deal with huge blows like this. We’ve had lots of practice feeling out of control and being on the verge of breaking down. What luck! Just as you so clearly see it, I have no doubt this outwardly appearing awful thing, is a healthy development born of the universe’s knowing that you are now strong enough to find and accept something truly deserving of you. You’re gonna be great!
Sometimes we need a push to make a change we already knew we should have made a long time ago. We get comfortable and resign ourselves to our situation. One Friday afternoon after 10 years, multiple promotions and nothing but glowing reviews, my position was “eliminate” with zero warning. I had just bought my first home on my own and bought a new car. I was scared out of my mind. I allowed myself to feel the fear and hopelessness all weekend. I got up Monday morning and made looking for a job my full time job. After many interviews and sending out I don’t even know how many applications, I started a new job 4 weeks later. I am so much happier now and am grateful they forced me to make the change I should have made on my own.
Reach out to your friends, family and previous co-workers for job leads. I got a TON of leads that way.
You happened to quote my favorite author, Chuck Palahniuk. Here is another quote of his that I love, “Find joy in everything you choose to do. Every job, relationship, home… it’s your responsibility to love it, or change it.”
This comment means so much. Seriously. Thank you times a million.
I feel you on this. Oh lordy do I ever. My late 20s were a nightmare filled with marriage, divorce, unemployment, emotional abuse and manipulation from a parent, a bad relationship and a severe lack of confidence in myself. And like you, I finally woke up and realized that damn it I deserve better. I deserve to have the life I want.
Sorry to read you’ve been thrown such a shitty curveball. Life is such a jerk at times. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts and sending out positive vibes that you won’t have to decorate a cardboard box. You’re smart. You’ll be fine. Sending hugs your way. 🙂
I add my regret that you lost your job in such a unfeeling way right before the end of the year. I hope you get many responses to your Linkedin profile. Perhaps a note that you are now available for new and more fulfilling work will bring in some contacts. The umemployment will help for awhile. Good luck and please keep posting.
Wow. That IS big news. But you seem to be handling it like a champ! I’m scared for you and excited for you, all at the same time! Keeping good thoughts for you. Onward and upward!
So sorry to hear this. I’m one step removed myself as my husband has had 3 job losses in as many years so I understand. I don’t know what your background is but if you have any experience doing freelance copyediting or proofreading I should be able to get you something if you’re at all interested. Feel free to message me.
Here is my LinkedIn profile, as I have more than eight years as a managing editor and writer, not to mention years of freelance copy writing.
Oh, Abby, I’m so sorry. You already know I went through the exact same thing (even at the same time of year) 3 years ago so I have some idea of the emotions banging around in your head. You’re right- they’ll change day to day and the fear will creep in but if you can keep the optimism alive it will work out. Mostly, be kind to yourself right now. You need and deserve it.
Thanks for sharing this. You’re incredible!
And it’s absolutely alright. Just don’t lose hope and you’ll be there. Love (y)
“You’ll do fine, Abs.” *kisses cheek ala Mark Harmon NCIS style*
I found myself in the same boat EXACTLY back in June. I was with a company (a BIG one) where I was doing well and moving forward and then suddenly one day, by complete surprise, it was gone. Turns out, it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Here I am, 6 months later in an exponentially better place, with an exponentially better career ahead of me, feeling . . . exponentially better. About myself, my life and where I am going.
They didn’t ditch you, you dropped the baggage that was holding you back and your funny, talented self can now grow into everything you want to be. I look forward to seeing where that takes you!
Thanks so much. Here’s hoping.
Onward and upward! You are brilliantly talented and any company would be lucky to have you!!!
I went through the exact same thing (dating-wise) with a man years ago and it lasted 11 years! I was so afraid to be on my own. But, like you, it was the best thing that could have happened to me. AND, right before I left him, I lost my job too. That opened up new doors for me as well. So, yes, it will all work out, I promise. Change is inevitable and can be very empowering. 🙂
Oh man – I am so sorry to hear you lost your job. I’ve had some really horrible jobs over the past 3 or 4 years but no matter how bad they were I still feared losing them. It’s why my focus right now is on losing bad expensive habits and budgeting properly for the future – to minimize that fear by taking control.
I hope you find a job you love and I’m really inspired by your positivity in this post.
Shit, Abby. I’m sorry. You’ve got such a positive outlook on it, and I know it’s super scary. Uncertainty always is (for me anyhow). I’m wishing you all the best in the coming weeks as you regroup and show your future company what a bad-ass you are.
P.S. That was the most articulate ramble ever.
Thanks. I’m contractually obligated by myself to say I might not be “quite” as optimistic as I project, but I figure I can go one of two ways: forward or closer to rock bottom. I’ve been to the latter, so why not hope for the former?
I like your positive outlook. I could use a little of that because my husband of over 16 years told me he is “done” with me today. It’s a long story that I won’t even try to explain, but I have to say, I was rather taken aback. Divorce wasn’t even on my radar. Talking through a difficult time caused by his 24 year old son( my stepson) was my plan. I guess the problem with the boy will no longer include me and, for that, I will be glad, but I’ll really miss my husband.
I’m so sorry for your situation. As you know, it can only get better and while it hurts now, I have to believe that you deserve someone who adores you and treats you like you deserve to be treated. Hang in there.
Wow. So sorry you didn’t get to quit on your own terms. But know you will bounce back. How can it be any other way? You’re Abby! 🙂
Sending you incredibly big hugs and a TON of positive energy! It seems like you have a lot of marketable skills. And it seems like something was meant to be. I’m rooting for you and as I said, let me know how I can help. I mean that. 🙂
Check out this website for job hunting tips, surviving being fired, and finding your true path: http://www.humanworkplace.com
We build our own cages, so we know what their made of…money, security, comfort–but life is too short to be unhappy. This should definitely be seen as a blessing as scary as it may seem. Sending positive vibes your way!
As an older, wiser woman (I’m 34), I believe this is a sign, and I love that you’re embracing a new opportunity–whatever it may be. May the new year bring new, WONDERFUL things. Actually, let’s get those new, wonderful things a bit sooner, mmmkay, Universe? 😉 xoxo
I went through this identical thing a year ago. Even after I swore I would never allow myself to stay in another soul-sucking job.. there I was and then they broke up with me. The one thing that got me through my time in the land of unemployment was a mantra: “What if I don’t have to panic and worry about what is going to happen? What if i can just know that in some way or another, this is all going to work itself out and I can just enjoy the process?”
And a year later, I am ok. I am not in a dream job, but I am also not homeless and penniless. I have to say that I am far preferring being in a “lesser” job than a higher paying soul sucking unhealthy job. I wish you a meaningful and anxiety-free journey as corny as that might sound. ENJOY this time if you are able.
You’ll bounce back! I’ve been laid off 3 times in the last 10 years. It sucks, but you will survive. The economy is bouncing back so people are hiring. Find your dream job girl, and rock it!
Just before the holidays is the favorite time for firings. They don’t have to give you the bonus that you so richly deserve! Of course, if they’re going to replace you, they will end up spending more on the training than the bonus they saved by firing you.
Life is one change after another. We have to keep readjusting ourselves to the next unwanted or unexpected happening.
I hope you will find your “keeper” job next time, and it won’t take you as long as you think it will right now. Chin up, girl! We’re all rootin’ for ya!! 🙂
Yes, ’tis the season. Thank you for your support!
I hope you are able to let your worries go so that the Holidays are wonderful for you and your family. Enjoy this Holiday season and start make a plan of what you want to do. It is a start of a new year a new you. I am a firm believer everything happens for a reason, sometimes we might not know that reason, but there is a reason. have a Blessed Holiday and a Wonderful beginning to your New Year, Your New You!
Thank you so much! To be honest, I’ve been so busy trying to sort things out, answer messages, send out my resume, etc. since Friday that I haven’t had much time to even really process things or wallow that much. I’m sure it will happen, but like you said, hopefully it’s the start of something even better…thank you!
I read this. I read every bit of this and my heart aches for you. This is the first time I’ve read anything on your site and I plan to keep reading. I’ll keep various bits crossed for you and if there’s anything a perfect stranger can do, please hollar! We’re all in this together, yes?
I’m sorry this is the first post of mine you’ve read, but thank you for the note and I hope you stick around for better times!
Abby, I’m so sorry. This sucks. I hate the phrase “everything happens for a reason” so I won’t say it. But, I do hope something amazing comes from this for you. Love and prayers to you.
Your ex-employers are jerks. It could be time to turn your need to exercise into a full-time paying job as a Personal Trainer and get others to do the exerting. 🙂 Now that would be re-inventing you!
Ignore my silliness – I just hope all turns out well for you. You deserve so much more than a job that sucks and unappreciative, lying employers. I wish I could win lotto, and then I could employ you to be anything you want. “It’s better to live in hope …” etc.
I keep telling the pets it’s time to start contributing financially but they always ignore me. Maybe you’ll have better luck with your cat. But for real, I think this will turn out ok for you and can’t wait to hear about the great job you land!
I got fired from my first job. The first thing I worried about was signing up for unemployment. The second thing was getting a good tan. (It was an awful job that was a relief to lose, and it was summertime). I have faith in you!
I think it’s time for the gnome to drink the vodka and crash the mini bottle into a fireplace (or other suitable place that won’t result in shards of glass penetrating your feet, thus requiring use of those remaining benefits to get sutures) in a show of devil may care attitude. You will come through this.
Abby, if there’s anything at all I can do, let me know. Email me. Send me your resume and I’ll keep my eyes open for leads.
Thank you. XO
Hi Abby, You WILL be fine! when something goes “wrong” in my life, I feel that is just LIFE pushing me, when even though I was not happy, I was just to comfortable to make the leap, remember, “don’t look back, you’ve already been there.” Smiles
Solidarity. Thinking of you and knowing you will do great things!
Well said Abby!!! I just got the chance to read this and of course I can relate to quite a bit. I do not have any words of wisdom other than YOU GO GIRL smile and btw we are reading xooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo nancy
You’re in good company, and we’re rooting for you. I was in the same place not too long ago.
I was in a job for almost two years that I knew wasn’t a good fit. I tried to stick it out, try to work through a rough patch. I had three bosses while I was there and was there the longest out of my team.
Then out of the blue I was told to shape up or I would lose my job in a little over a month. Then she went on vacation for two weeks.
While this was going on I was applying elsewhere like crazy. Then I got fired, really applied and interviewed like a maniac, and got a new job in two weeks. I didn’t even really need unemployment.
Now I make more money, my title is nicer, I like what I do and I like who I work with. I’m still pretty pissed but it really worked out in my favor.
It sucks to be fired, especially when you did your job, but screw them. It’ll benefit you in the end, it’ll work out and you’ll be so much happier. I know I was freaking out in the interim and I know you will be too. It will get better, you will make it through the other side, and it will be worth it!
Thanks. I needed to read this today, as it’s been two weeks and I’m so frustrated and still so damn scared. And pissed. But I have to hope things will work out. So glad that they did for you!
Yes, you will be frustrated, scared, pissed, anxious, all of those lovely feelings. Put your nose to the grindstone, KICK ASS! File for unemployment, update your resume, research, and apply like crazy. I got good at it since I’ve applied to many jobs and have jumped every couple of years (it’s an industry thing and smaller places don’t really have “growth”). Luckily for you you’re a writer so you’re ahead of the game 🙂 You got this, you’ll get to the other side of this, and you will happier for it. You got a massive team rooting for you! YOU CAN DO IT!
Oh, trust me. I started doing all those things the same day I was let go. Just keeping up with all that is a full-time job, but also so dang frustrating. But it’s day to day, as you know!
Oh, it is. I felt like I worked more unemployed than I did employed. It’s frustrating, the unknown is enough to make you crazy. But do what you need to do, and also remember to take breaks and breathers. Otherwise you’ll burn out. You won’t be top notch when you’re applying and interviewing, or you’ll be exhausted by the time you land a job. Believe it will all work out, do what you can, and keep sane. That’s the hardest part. It was for me anyway, since I wasn’t to begin with 🙂